Stutter Step

You know that feeling where you think you know just the purchase that is going to complete you? Several years ago, I had an increased interest in the outdoors and of course there are products for that like there are for everything under the sun (and if you find an area where a product is lacking, here lies a grand opportunity). All you have to do is find someone who’s identity is wrapped up in the product and you’ve got a sale.  It was an outdoors identity that I was seeking at the time and a cool outfitter’s hat was going to let everyone know who I was. So on a trip to the buffalo river, I stopped in to a small store that sold all kinds of supplies for a day on the river, including many, identity bolstering hats, t-shirts, etc. Well, a few weeks prior to that in an institute class (a religion class at church) Wally Goddard was teaching about fast offerings which are donations to the church to care for the poor.  He mentioned that as a rule, he tries not to spend more on clothing than he does on fast offerings. It was thought provoking, but it wasn’t the only thing provoking my thoughts. There was also my identity! So, back at the outfitter, I searched through stacks of hats that would let the world know who I am. I found just the right one and determined to purchase it. But as I took a few steps toward the register, I paused, thinking of the institute lesson. How could I spend twenty bucks on a hat when so many of God’s children are going without food and basic necessities?   I already had several hats and didn’t really need another one. I wrestled with it for a few moments, even picking out a hat and walking toward the register but ultimately chose to forego the purchase. That Sunday, I gave a twenty dollar fast offering.  I was grateful for the effect of that teaching and hope that more and more frequently, I will be found making decisions that serve someone beyond myself.